Anyway, I highly suspect that I gained weight.
I don’t even dare to weigh myself. But my appetite really increased.
I can eat a lot more stuff now… especially during work. Like snacks are being passed around and you just take and nom away happily. Then before you know it, you gain weight. O_O;;

Hahaha. People always tell me, “You so skinny! EAT MORE!”
NOooOOOOOooOo!!! You guys can’t see my tummy! T^T When my tummy appears, that is the end of the world. HAHA. okay. too exaggerated. =x So I have decided to control what I eat. From today onwards, no more munching on snacks during work. From tomorrow onwards, no more fast food (cuz I just ate KFC for dinner! haha. craving. ><)!

Let’s hope I can stick to it. hahaha. =D

Oh. and the blog title?
Just wanna say BE YOURSELF. YOU ARE THE PRETTIEST WHEN YOU ARE CONFIDENT.
Don’t expect people to love you when you don’t even love yourself! =)

If anyone dares to compare, tell him/her, SCREW YOU. xDD

還是原來那個我 不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾 遲早我會還這張臉一堆笑容

不算什麼 愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯 早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了 賴著不放掉
人本來就寂寞的 借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你 是我自己做夢你有改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用 每個人有每個人的業障因果

會有什麼 什麼都沒有
早點看破 才看得見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了 賴著不放掉
人本來就寂寞的 我總會把你戒掉

*whacks self*

You left me here… numb with pain.
There is nothing you can do. And I don’t know how to make myself feel better.
I kept asking myself. What went wrong? when nothing went wrong.

Recalling what we talked about and what you said to me sends tears down my face.
I cried and cried until my eyes were swollen in pain. I thought after crying it all out, I would feel better.
Instead, I find myself numb. I don’t know what to do. I’m afraid to move on. I’m scared to take a step backwards too.
What is the answer I’m searching for?

Maybe you (or anyone who reads this) will think I’m an idiot.
Have you ever felt that this person before you is the one? I used to think that that is bullshit.
…until I met you. I never felt like this about anyone before. You are the one.
haha. 可能就只是我的错觉吧。

我并不是放不开。只是感到不服。
不服输给了你的过去，你的初恋，还有时间。

为什么我要爱一个人就这么辛苦呢？
为什么老天就这么讨厌我呢？
为什么我就不能如心所愿呢？
为什么我爱的人就不能爱回我呢？

好累。。。真想一个人到海边去吹风。
希望海风可以把一切烦恼和难过都吹走。

~Dr. Seuss
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Thanks to dear vio, I can’t stop myself from playing this game. >< haha~

Sigh. I don’t like to feel emo. because when i feel emo, my thoughts will naturally become super pessimistic.
JUST LIKE NOW. ><

I am someone who never once believed that the guy I like will ever like me back.
why? I can’t remember… but I guess all the guys I liked before never liked me back? orz sad life right? okay. maybe except for one person. my ex-boyfriend.

Twin says that if there is a first time, there will be a second time.
I really wonder. or maybe it’s just me. Either I’m damn suay (no luck at all w guys) or I always choose the wrong person to like.
maybe it’s the latter. *rolls on the floor*

Audrey says that it is rare that I actually express interest in someone (other than my anime boys. HAHA.).
Maybe? I don’t know.
I thought these feelings will never find me again after my breakup. Loving someone can be sweet and lovely. at the same time, it can be super tiring. Yet, I still fall into this shithole. I hate you for being able to do all these to me.

Maybe I need to learn to take things slowly. Maybe I need to be patient.
Maybe I need more hope (hope is a dangerous word.). Maybe what is mine, will become mine eventually.
maybe? oh, don’t you love the word maybe? *stabs self*

Dearie vio told me there is not right or wrong in liking someone.
I was worried and scared. but I still decided to step foward.
Maybe time will tell. Maybe maybe…

sigh…

This time to share another wonderful OP of KHR~

家庭教師ヒットマンREBORN! 4th Opening: 88 by LM.C

I personally like this song by LM.C alot. and this opening is the beginning of the Future Arc.
you can see Tsuna with his coffin. >< haha. and also all the other guardians and their TYL forms. Yamamoto is ♥ plz. he is so shuai TYL~ so is Hibariri~ *cuddles* Oh and you also get to see abit of shuai ge Colonnello too~

Tsuna’s face at 1:22 is HAHAHA~ but doesn’t change the fact that me loves him very muchie~ ♥
oh yah, I went to wikipedia jp to read up about KHR. (yeah, I know I am crazy. No need to remind me.) My hubby, the first generation Vongola boss… Vongola Primo = Giotto (his Italian name) = Sawada Ieyasu (his Japanese name after he retired to Japan). =.= I don’t fancy his real name and his japanese name. Thus, I shall stick to calling him Primo~ haha. =xx

an uninvited beetle flew into my room just now. zzz.
but I think it flew out. so I am safe? lol.

oh, and I BOUGHT THE KHR 2011 CALENDAR. xD
can’t wait for it to arrive~~ Primo & Tsuna & Reborn on cover page! ♥

I am still very much crazy over KHR.
It’s been a long long time since I’m this crazy. xD and I have decided to spread my KHR love everywhere now.
Like my twitter and wallpaper~

NO LIMITS! *gets whacked again*

Anyway! Just to share another wonderful OP from KHR (as usual)!

家庭教師ヒットマンREBORN! 5th Opening: Last Cross by Mitsuoka Masami

No Primo. BUT Tsunana is ♥♥♥~!! Not to mention TYL Hibari… *drools*
I do hope they make a KHR movie soon! ><

like seriously? over a delayed reply for an sms?
the best thing is, after whatever inconsiderate stuff the couple has done, the guy came forward to apologize only when his boss wants to fire him. TSK. WTF?

find yourselves a mirror. you’ll see 2 monsters in the reflection.

just wanna share my current favourite OP.

家庭教師ヒットマンREBORN! 8th Opening: LISTEN TO THE STEREO!!

The song’s alright. but the reason why i love this opening so much….
MY PRIMO SAMA IS IN IT! xD

wondering who is Primo?
this is him:

OMFG. LOVE LOVE LOVE~!!

well, not just Primo lah. There is still Tsuna, Hibari & Mukuro~!!
♥♥♥