My Sanctuary

I finally awaken from the sea of sorrows.
now looking at my previous entry, I feel so stupid.
OMG. LOL.

*whacks self*

好久没有心痛的感觉了。
也只有你才能让我这么伤心，难过。。。

You left me here… numb with pain.
There is nothing you can do. And I don’t know how to make myself feel better.
I kept asking myself. What went wrong? when nothing went wrong.

Recalling what we talked about and what you said to me sends tears down my face.
I cried and cried until my eyes were swollen in pain. I thought after crying it all out, I would feel better.
Instead, I find myself numb. I don’t know what to do. I’m afraid to move on. I’m scared to take a step backwards too.
What is the answer I’m searching for?

Maybe you (or anyone who reads this) will think I’m an idiot.
Have you ever felt that this person before you is the one? I used to think that that is bullshit.
…until I met you. I never felt like this about anyone before. You are the one.
haha. 可能就只是我的错觉吧。

我并不是放不开。只是感到不服。
不服输给了你的过去，你的初恋，还有时间。

为什么我要爱一个人就这么辛苦呢？
为什么老天就这么讨厌我呢？
为什么我就不能如心所愿呢？
为什么我爱的人就不能爱回我呢？

好累。。。真想一个人到海边去吹风。
希望海风可以把一切烦恼和难过都吹走。